23.07.2016.

Orange Whiteout

I was gonna write a lengthy critique of RNC 2016 and Trump’s speech. I so wanted to use the above title and slip the word McCarthyism somewhere in there. However, now that I’m cooled down (and especially after watching Jon Stewart’s 10 minutes of brilliance on Stephen Colbert’s show) I only want to say this:
 
I love the idea of Hillary being president only from the angle of her being the first female president. Nothing much else. That being said...
 
The prospect of Trump becoming a president scares me. Not because he’s a narcissistic buffoon / wannabe dictator. I have no clue, fuck, neither of you has a clue what he would be like if elected. That’s not the point. Besides, I’m not saying that President cannot do a lot of damage but executive branch is very limited otherwise we’d already bask in a blissful socialism utopia after 8 years of Obama.
 
What scares me the most is that if he gets elected it means that there’s a majority out there who elected this guy based on his campaign, his rhetoric, his message, the sentiment he chose to exploit. 4 years ago there was Tea Party movement. All kinds of candidates rode its waves but eventually they would be deemed way too stupid / hateful / disrespectful to women / not serious candidates. Oops, Rick Perry! So the GOP got Romney. Who had to crank up the crazy during primaries because of said Tea Party. Let me borrow from one of my previous posts:
 
1. Romney got 59% votes of the whites. He still lost.
2. 78% of so called white evangelical / born again Christians voted Romney. He still lost.
3. People earning $50k or more a year voted Romney but just by 52%-54%. The poor... oops, those below $30k went 63% for Obama.
4. Married men went Romney. So did married women but not that much.
5. Non married women, tho! 67% for Obama.

And this is what scares me. Supposedly, after 2008 elections, The Republican Party decided to be more inclusive, pushing Bobby Jindal, Marco Rubio etc... to the front. They even named an African American guy as a chairman. However, the birth of Tea Party made them ditch the silly idea. And they lost. So, you’d think that based on the above, this time it was obvious to them that they would clearly have to be more inclusive.
They went with Trump. Tea Party is baby shower comparing to Trump supporters. And if they win this time... that scares the shit outta me. Not him. Them. That number above, 59% whites is what scares me. What’s it gonna be this time.
09.07.2016.

Moje deveto njujorsko ljeto

Svako pamtim po necemu. Prvo, jer je prvo, drugo po Long Islandu, trece po Lou Reedu, cetvrto po zeni, peto po istoj zeni, sesto po Bill's placeu, sedmo po drag showu, osmog sam skoro umro. Deveto, come on down!

02.01.2016.

Ding - Ding

Happy New Year!

22.09.2015.

Vrijeme stoji

jah...
 
kojim jezikom govoris
kad ce referendum
vode nema
 
jah...
 
vremena ima

07.07.2015.

10 years

Wow..... Got nothing to say.

22.05.2015.

Dust off

I was like, wow, something changed. I'm not into it as much, granted, but I've been here for 10 years so I really hope this will work.
 

24.02.2015.

So I guess this isn't it

Well, I don't mind.
 
 

24.01.2015.

The Dewd Abides

This will... stand, i guess...

28.10.2014.

Fuckin' A, Man!

Wow, ustajali zrak i talog prasine. Cak mi je blogger i sliku zaboravio. Ode blog u nostalgicna sjecanja. Ja sam dobro i zdravo.

28.02.2014.

Repriza

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25.02.2008.

Meni ngitis - iliti upalio mi se, opet, mozak

 

Džaba što se odrekoh superjunaštva! Zalud' što proglasih ovo mjesto chillout zonom! Udri se bekane!

 

Zahvati me ponovo neko moje iracionalno, revolucionarno ludilo pozitive i nade. Vidjeh šansu! U takvom stanju napisah u nedjelju ujutro ovo:

 

 

Taktički i strategijski do promjene strukture društva

 

 

 

Cilj: Funkcionalna građanska država jednakih i odgovorno građansko društvo.

 

 

 

Najbitniji strategijski pravci djelovanja (top - down načelo):

 

-         Razbijanje monopola nacionalnih stranaka na "zaštitu" države / entiteta / interesa.

-         Podizanje svijesti o bitnosti političkih programa stranaka.

-         Podizanje svijesti o političkoj odgovornosti stranaka i pojedinaca na vlasti i u oporbi, te o odgovornosti građana

-         Promoviranje mehanizama građanske kontrole vlasti

-         Zahtijevanje neovisnog, transparentnog, časnog i efikasnog sudstva

-         Promoviranje slobode i neovisnosti medija

 

Priznati činjenicu: Na vlasti je oligarhija, sa samo na papiru različitim stavovima, koja usuglašeno dijeli vlast, proračun, privatizaciju. Zbog toga je država u gotovo svim aspektima nefunkcionalna, aparat je prekompliciran i skup, ne postoji transparentnost, socijalni i zdravstveni aspekti države su u ruševinama i dok god je ova oligarhija na vlasti, stanje se neće promijeniti.

 

Priznati činjenicu: Oporbene stranke sada nisu odgovarajuća alternativa vladajućima, što ne znači odbacivanje istih kao eventualnih partnera građanima.

 

Priznati činjenicu: B-H društvo je višestruko podijeljeno. Etničke podjele su zacementirane ustrojem države. Socijalne podjele su ogromne, a poremećena je i urbana struktura. 

 

 

Taktičke akcije (bottom - up načelo):

 

Ne prihvatiti na početku djelovanja vodstvo niti jedne postojeće organizacije, stranke ili profiliranog pojedinca. Suradnja da.

 

OHR-u prepustiti zaštitu daytonske BiH. Neće se, niti se može itko odcijepiti. Plašenje rezolucijama, referendumima i sl. služi samo i isključivo održavanju oligarhije na vlasti. Bitno je ne reagirati na provokacije te vrste. Potrebna suradnja i jasno očitovanje OHR-a o ovom pitanju.

 

Razdvojiti djelovanje na entitete, s naročitim naglaskom na lokalni nivo. Ustroj na nivou države, ma koliko bitan bio za efikasnije funkcioniranje, ne dirati, jer traženje bilo kakvih promjena na tom nivou može poslužiti kao poticaj oligarhiji na vlasti. 

 

Osnovati centre građanskog djelovanja u gradovima i regijama, prilagođene postojećim socijalnim strukturama društva. Bitna je pokrivenost. Sarajevo i druge veće gradove možda podijeliti na više operativnih zona, a gdje je potrebno, objediniti više mjesta u jednu zonu. Suradnja, razmjena.  

 

Formirati žarišta djelovanja u skladu s navedenim strategijama.

 

 

Struktura i organiziranost...

 

 

Tu stadoh, zaustavljen obvezama. Jel' me prošlo, jesam li se ohladio, ne znam, ali sad kad čitam ovo, smijem se sam sebi. Ponavljam cijelo jutro, kao mantru: Već si donio odluku, finalizirao si je, sve je sređeno, karta je u džepu!  Već si donio odluku, finalizirao si je, sve je sređeno, karta je u džepu! Već si donio odluku, finalizirao si je, sve je sređeno, karta je u džepu! Već si donio odluku...

 

 

21.01.2014.

Ode to New York City in one breath: I was asked and this was my answer

You know when you live and you like it... and when you're down, you look up to see what colors the Empire State Building is displaying and you're not so down... you're a mouse, an ant in an ant hill, and now and then you get to be the king of the hill... you get to meet someone on a train or at the food cart, who's your friend at that very moment, never to be seen again... you think your life is a huge waiting line and that you're waiting for so long and you have no idea anymore for what and then forgetaboutit, you step out and plunge into the desert after rain... so many smells, so many sounds, so much life and you know that you have your own nook where everything stops and gets far, though just a step away... you often think that you've been grinding and gritting and rubbing so hard that it looks like you're about to get too worn out for anything only to be awaken with a bitch of a hangover but full and whole.. it's like you belong here and yet nobody sees you and there is no growing up ever and you're so grownup because you made it and you're still making it and you know you begun out of scratch and you really think you could make it anywhere but that anywhere is not worth it because this is THE fucking center of the universe and you are it and even when you're a rat with giants stomping around you and shaking the ground you have your eyes at level with theirs because you pay with your own blood...
 
I love it even when I hate it.

13.12.2013.

Train of Thought

There sits she
Dressed like an elf
Drinking something
Right out of the jar


Her eyes descended
Right out of tales
Celestial face
Hidden by a shawl


She sits across me
On a subway train
And all I can manage
To think about is

...
 

There's something vile
Green, I guess
Supposedly healthy
In that jar
 

02.12.2013.

Everybody knows

I want to put this out there regarding the ballot proposition in Croatia. "Worse" thing happened in California 5 years ago, on a very day Obama won his first term with the whole "yes we can" hope and change shebang. Remember, the "only marriage between a man and a woman is valid or recognized in California" thing was voted into the Constitution practically nullifying all prior gay marriages legalized by earlier court ruling. The prop 8 was later struck down as unconstitutional so there you go.

Now, most of the reactions and subsequent comments on my FB feed prior, during and after the Croatian thing were those of irony, outrage, and disappointment tying the outcome to the nazi parts of Croatian history, invoking the "first they came for the Communists" poem and such.

It's OK to be concerned, disappointed and a bit sarcastic. I mean, at the end of the day, the voting majority does not necessarily possess great wisdom. It's manipulated by the campaign, preachings of the elites, misinformation and by the lack of facts.

Bear in mind, every modern state has some kind of protection of the minorities in place. If you cannot lose your job because you're gay, if you cannot be denied medical or educational services because you're a minority, if you cannot be imprisoned (or executed) just because of who you are... well, you're not living in a nazi regime. Especially if you have an independent judicial system in place. Now, there's inheritance issue, there are hospital rights, tax breaks and such denied to people (not just gay people) living outside of the marriage contract but some of them are easily remedied by other forms of contracts.

Let's face it. The issue with the gay marriages is a religious issue. It's how the marriage itself is defined by the religion and thus divined. Now, let's be serious, it's not what happened in the, say, Bible, it's what the ultimate religious authority says that counts. All this while having in mind that a vast majority of people in most countries is religious. There are social tendencies that might question the intensity of the religious beliefs of an individual or a society especially nowadays with all tech - info - app - comm revolution. What I believe looking at these social tendencies is that if marriage as a social nucleus wasn't protected and supported by the political and religious elites it would become irrelevant in no time. It is a fact that US and UK passed the point where more than 50% of the population is outside the marriage years ago. I don't want to go into it. I'm just saying that there is a reason for the whole brouhaha around marriage. Just as there's still reason to declare and uphold the separation of the church and the state and protection of minorities.

The above is just a teeny tiny scratch on the surface. What about the poverty and unemployment? Is it easier to be tolerant and open minded when your future is secured and you don't have to struggle to survive? Tell that to the Swiss for example and their issue with the immigrants. It is, however, safe to say that it's easier to manipulate less educated and less empowered population. Who's gonna protect them?

See, I don't really want to wonder if the system is rigged and the rule of law is a trap to keep the masses obedient and the elites on the top, is it some sort of camouflaged Nazi regime where you have an illusion of freedom and toil under the yoke happily distracted by this or that big, important issue... I say whatever. I love life. It's enough for me.
 
Yeah, but I don't have kids to be scared for their future...
 
The thing never ends.

Everybody knows that the dice are loaded
Everybody rolls with their fingers crossed
Everybody knows that the war is over
Everybody knows the good guys lost
Everybody knows the fight was fixed
The poor stay poor, the rich get rich
That's how it goes
Everybody knows

21.11.2013.

Tweet

If your biggest achievement in life, if the stuff that defines you as a person, if the sole purpose of your existence is belonging to a race / nation / religion / sexual ... I wanna say orientation? / football club fandom... Pistolji Majakovski, Sanski Most! ...

29.07.2013.

Watch!

13.07.2013.

Believe

You know what, I can buy that some people, a lot of people really believe in stuff, with strong conviction that they're in the right. I believe in a lot of things too. I don't think I'm always right, but most of the time I am (even now. Ha!) But I'm a single person and my beliefs are individual and to the insignificant influence on the society I live in. Gather a bunch of us with a single belief and proportionally multiplied convictions... well, you got yourself a force. Throw in a book, some ur-old traditions and a top down system and you got yourself a kingdom of heaven on earth.


Now of course, if you live amidst, say, Orthodox Jewish community, you will be affected by their beliefs and convictions. Even if you walk around almost naked eating bacon. You cannot buy anything you want in local groceries, for example. It's not, however forbidden to walk a few extra blocks and got what you need. It's not forbidden even if the local community undoubtedly wishes it to be.


It's not forbidden because this is still a secular state with secular Constitution and secular laws. You are not forced to close down business on Saturday. Or Sunday. Or any day, based on a religion, even Christmas. See, I believe that the reason for this is to protect the others who do not share particular beliefs.


Sometimes, however, a big angry mob of believers with convictions, who believe that they have a sacred duty, in the name of their god, to protect life from the moment of conception to the... well, in some cases death sentence, gets similar people elected and those people out of the same beliefs with convictions start pushing for some laws which would affect all people, not just the believers, that... well, that is scary.


I believe that you believe. I believe that you're convinced. I believe that you think you have a sacred duty to protect life, heterosexual marriage, sanctity of this or that... I cannot really say that I respect that. I can say that I respect your right to believe in whatever you wish to believe. That being said...


What the fuck do I want to say?


You know that Nazi Germans really believed they were better than the others? Nope! I'm not saying that you're blood thirsty psycho murderers. I just want to remind you that the Nazi doctrine primarily requires to put their own people under absolute control. Out of the beliefs. Now that you have a system working that way, it is a matter of time for a bloodthirsty psycho murderers to climb the ladder of power and do what they want.


But your beliefs are pure, righteous and from god! Of course they are. So are beliefs of Taliban. I mean for now you may just say that the primary function of women in the society is to be mothers. Who's to say that if you have it your way with this law, and then that law, you too will forbid them to get education?


Oh,. but you're civilized. Besides a lot of women share your beliefs. Indeed. Nazi, on the other hand, or Taliban, or... ah fuck this.


To the Texas Senators who passed the abortion restriction bill: Fuck you! You may ride local waves of Tea Parties to your posts but you will never rise above your localities because guess what? There are still more sane and reasonable people in this great country. People who believe, with strong convictions, but who know that that's their business and anybody else can believe what ever they wish because this is a free country.


As to the body of the bill: Roe v. Wade guarantees 24 weeks so your pitiful would-be-law will be struck down in the Supreme Court eventually. What a waste of time, money, vocal cords, nerves and whatnot.


But in the meantime, the damage done with the other parts of the bill ("restricts abortions to surgical centers and limits where and when abortion pills can be taken") will be on your heads.


Oh, and... fuck you, Rick Perry!

04.05.2013.

In Memoriam

Gods, what memories on this day! I remember where I was 33 years ago. I remember the funeral and all the world watching, leaders in attendance. I remember grownups around me radiating fear and uncertainty. And sadness. And pride. That day I experienced that stomach pain for the first time in my living memory and I don't think I'll ever forget it. When someone important to me dies. When someone I loved broke up with me. When something I invested a lot of me in fell thru. All those resembled the first time. But since I was just an 8 year old then, I recovered fairly. Besides, after that day a tsunami of propaganda hit all of us. All artists, all stars, athletes, public persons were on one track. Oh the songs... Titova se zvijezda ugasila nije, svjetlost njena sada iznutra nas grije... (Tito's star never stopped shining. It's light warms us now from within ourselves...) The memorials, the parades, the schoolbooks, the media...

I've seen him only twice. I remember both times. First time I was 5 and my father was with me, it was a dedication, the new school was being named after him. His huge black and white portrait was 1/3 of the facade. Later when he died, they planted 88 pine trees next to it. One year after, the second time I saw him was very significant. It was a drive thru our city, he would not stop, just wave from the car. I was home alone and for the first time I left it by myself, crossing the street and lining up on the other side. I also remember that day by having a mishap earlier in the morning. I drew a very hipster moustachios on my face and it was in pen and back then that ink was not easy to wash away and I was forced to greet the president with fake mustaches. I swear he looked right at me and put on some extra smile.

Didn't see him third time. By the time I was supposed to, the fields were empty, the factories burned, emptied, turned into prison camps and... well, forgetaboutit.

01.05.2013.

Mayday! May Day!

Well, of course I know that it's NOT just a jump to the left and the step to the right. I also know that there had been a shitload of dizzy whirling and tugging that you really need a good compass now to figure out the sides.

I know 2 things: 1) there's no better motivator for development in human history than the profit and 2) when devoid of humanity itself a for-profit corp becomes literally a war criminal. Oh, nowadays there's a third side too way too far beyond the left. Because of it you can afford a pair of socks a day. The one that becomes visible only when it ends up under a rubble in a swampland in Bangladesh. I need to stop talking.

Happy May Day everyone!

PS: 5 full years since I moved to Manhattan.

16.04.2013.

pop goes the magic dragon

I should probably say something about goodness and love and such, ponder on the soul and the mind... This is an ugly world with barely enough beauty to make it bearable for some (not all). You found some? You lucky you. Gorgeous planet tho.

01.04.2013.

A plague o' both your houses

Evergreening - the process of making minor changes to the existing drugs in order to get new patents and prevent generic production.
 
 
I know that what I'm about to write is completely opposite to the claims I made in some previous posts but whatever. I mean, there was this occupy wall street thing, and I was like, I don't really give a fuck. Not even a tiny one.
 
I mean, I care a little about, say, gay rights - it still kinda upsets me when a majority denies a minority some basic stuff in the name of whatever. Digression: Dr. Carson, you may believe that some god created marriage between a man and a woman as much as you like but guess what, that god didn't create the constitution so I don't really think that... well, that's about how much I really care
.
 
Then, there's this corporate greed which is actually killing us in more ways than we'll ever know but still, I'm like annoyed with say horseshit... umm... horse meat in the beefburger and equally peeved when a delivery guy on a bike almost runs me over in the middle of the sidewalk. It's like fuck you and that's it.
 
Pharma, tho...  Gods, old and new, how I hate those guys. It's like you know those games what if you're omnipotent for a day or such... well, let's say that I'd have a special day of fun playing with the lot of them... fucking bloodsuckers. Because th... ya know what? Fuck this shit!  





Fun facts:

Patents usually protect the companies for 20 years of exclusive sales. After that, it is open to other firms who can make cheaper copies of the original drug.

Once the protection expires, the first company to challenge the patent gets an exclusive right to sell the copy for 180 days.

After 180 days, more companies can sell the generic versions, potentially resulting in a further price drop.

It is estimated that drugs with combined annual sales of $150bn will go off-patent by 2015.

Glivec, which is used to treat chronic myeloid leukaemia and other cancers, costs about $2,600 (£1,710) a month.

The generic equivalent is currently available in India for just $175.

The court’s ruling confirmed that India’s criteria for the granting of such patents remain far higher than those in the United States, where patents are so easy to win that one was given in 1999 for a peanut butter-and-jelly sandwich. Which country’s patent system does more to protect the sick and encourage invention has become an increasing source of international debate.

(sources: NY Times, BBC, 4/1/13)

29.03.2013.

T’ was 5 years ago...

The way I was… I remember some, the rest I can construct out of the scribbling I left here years ago. First, no matter how young I feel / look, I’m old. I know that because I want to be comfortable, both in body and mind. No risks, no ventures, no loudness, just living. It works, methinks, mostly because I like where I’m living. I couldn’t just live anywhere. I’ve been places and so far never lasted in one as long as now. Guess I settled. Second, I remember being riled up with all kinds of issues, being aware, engaged, proactive, progressive… And I thoroughly enjoyed it. Third, I was informed. Like a virtual sponge I collected information. My ex wife used to tell me that I’m addicted to it. Now I’m not even watching Jon Stewart (3 years ago I went to DC for his Rally to Restore Sanity and or Fear). The Dewd minded.

 

Well, let me stop my train of thoughts here. 5 years ago, on a Friday, cloudy and foggy, around 5:30pm eastern time I came to US. The next day I went to NYC for the first time. It took me a month to move in. And I’m still here. Let me greet y’all with a postcard I snapped this morning on my way to the office (from which I’m writing this -  a quiet day at work.) I called it ‘The Passenger”

01.03.2013.

I'm sentimental, if you know what I mean
I love the country but I can't stand the scene
And I'm neither left or right
I'm just staying home tonight,
getting lost in that hopeless little screen

19.02.2013.

Ru Mi Ru Mi Ru.....

The moment you accept... Well, the moment you accept the fact that nobody's giving you your troubles, not for this or that reason, that there is no door, nor window, it's just a bunch of successive circumstances (whether they correlate or not is totally irrelevant) and your reactions to them, and your actions to cause them based on your genetic attributes, social upbringing, urge to live, to survive to feel something, to be accepted... and all those caused by others around you...

 

Whoa! No wonder people believe in gods. 

09.02.2013.

You know nothing, Snow!

 



07.02.2013.

Blurgh!

I just realized that it's been AGES since the last time I watched Jon Stewart and / or Stephen Colbert. Wow. I used to be fervent follower for such a long time. On the other hand, I'm binge watching 30 Rock - in last few days I've seen more than 4 seasons. Oh, and I don't miss out on whatever they put online of SNL. The night is dark and full of it. And, it's winter. Also, I'm lazy and complacent. Whatever.



31.01.2013.

Revelation

 
I think Barbara messed up the punctuation and dropped one "s" - it should go: People? Who needs people?

 

28.01.2013.

Procrastinating on Monday Morning

Out of habit and not really ashamed of it, I'm still checking out sarajevo-x or xlix.ba or something. Usually, I glance at the headlines and have enough of it. Sometimes I click on one or two. Rarely, though, I read thru it.
 
This a time I have managed to read an article up to this paragraph:

"Predstavnici udruženja za zaštitu životinja "Život", "Av-mau", "Spas", "Avlijaneri", "Save the animals now", "Help animals" i "Life is life" iznijeli su svoje sumnje po pitanju sudbine pasa smještenih u azilu Hreša."
 
So to list them:
 
"Život",
"Av-mau",
"Spas",
"Avlijaneri",
"Save the animals now",
"Help animals" i
"Life is life"
 
Wow! Just wow! Or to pun it up: Woof.
 
And I'm not being sarcastic.

17.01.2013.

So, gun control, eh?

Let's put some chapters on this:

1) International Homicide Rate

People kill each other. If you believe in scriptures, you'd say it's so ever since Cain murdered Abel. Or you'd chalk it up to evolution (i.e. Sapiens supposedly eradicating neanderthals). Let's not talk about reasons. Let's talk numbers! There's an interesting statistic here: (www.unodc.org/documents/data-and-analysis/statistics/crime/Homicide_statistics2012.xls) If your focus is on murders by
fire arms, you might get different rates, and you might make some points in some agenda. In this document, tho, US has a murder rate of 4.8 per 100,000 population. Definitely way off when compared with Germany (0.8), Canada (1.6) or even Argentina (3.4). Compare it to Russia, Ukraine or Baltic countries... well. This is really neither here nor there, which is my point exactly. US perhaps has larger murders per capita rate compared to Western Europe but it's not really way off. I'm not gonna do a full blowout research on this, forgetaboutit, I just wanna say that guns being legal in US don't really make it a third world country rated. 

2) AMOK

Years ago I read an article in BH Dani by Mile Stojic in which the honorable poet and linguist explains the word Amok. I had an objection (penned on this blog too) to his reasoning in which he connected the pressures and pitfalls of the Western civilization to this, let's say, occurrence after explaining that the word itself comes from... I wanna say Sumatra? and that it's quite ancient. I was like: so if they had a word for it over there, back then, I mean, western what? People kill each other ever since.

3) Culture

It would be interesting, tho, to go into the details of the above mentioned murder rates, the juristical backgrounds, different regions, city v. suburbia v. rural country rates etc. There is a very strict gun law in NYC (and a lot of gun related murders, last summer (and fall) there were multiple gunshots every night). I have a feeling that it isn't so in some rural parts of the land where to have a gun is easier than driving a car. Of course, you'll say, even if we ignore the density, the diversity and the pressure and whatnot of the metropolis and say that we can compare these rates without asterisks, our city laws wouldn't have much impact on the statistic because it's not that big of a problem to cross the state line and get some serious weapons. Well, I'd say the national law might have some impact on the rate at first, but as it was with the prohibition and as it is with the drugs, we'll soon have smugglers profiting, home made weapons, Zip car style guns etc... People kill each other.


4) Driver's license

Personally, I'm for the tougher laws. We have enough potentially dangerous people driving cars. Still they have licenses, they have to renew them, pass tests, they have records, their cars have insurances, registrations... Even tho people are gonna kill each other still, there will be less stray bullets killing innocent children on playgrounds.
 
5) Constitution

If you want to overthrow a corrupt and tyrannical government, you don't necessarily need assault weapons. In this case, the level of sophistication of the army is such that raising arms against it is most likely to end in drone killings. Self defense can be ensured with a handgun and hunting can be done without rapid fire 30 round clip assault weapon. I see no infringement. I mean, imagine the time when the wretched 2nd amendment was penned there were gun powdered muzzle loaded muskets and some swords, pitchforks and scythes. Feel free to have those.

6) Summarum

People kill each other.

12.01.2013.

Postcards: Hookah Bar

 



02.01.2013.

Postcards: Times Sq, New Year's Day

 



01.01.2013.

Live From New York:

 
Ooops... Someone dropped the ball!

28.12.2012.

Holiday Sting

of me, myself and I, reflections of those, images of those and a very painful urge to pour some proverbial ink on the paper. 
 
 
 
I know me. There is a thing when I go all noble and stuff and start to think I might have gotten better and begin wishing for a second shot at life as the most people know it. That thing comes now and then and goes out fairly quickly without causing any serious damage to the image of me that I built for myself and that's that. I used to be a broken man. Now I'm broken and I like it. Or so says the image of me.

One thing is certain: I sure can ramble. I like to throw big words between myself and the real me. All I wanted to say is that these holidays are throwing all kinds of screwballs at me. 

...

20.12.2012.

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19.12.2012.

Season

You used to write poems, she said.

There was no disappointment in her voice. She was amused with my petty obsessions about irrelevant things. My touch is light these days and my grip doesn't hold. This is new to me, I know that now. It's been a while since I promised myself that I won't try to change ever again and if I do lie to myself, that's just fine. "The most important weapon
of survival that the evolution handed to us humans is self-deception supported with denial," I'm used to quote myself so often. This, however, whatever it is, is outside of my usual delusions.

I changed.
 

12.12.2012.

Steady decline

So, my stat counter shows that this year I had fewer clicks than the last. 2010, however, I had more than last two combined. Much more. And a year before more than all three together. 2008 was a peak, almost as much as all clicks after it.

That being said...
 
I don't know, people, I love it here. It''s been almost 5 years since the move and I have changed. The Dewd abides.

06.12.2012.

NYC Postcards: I've finally found it!!!

 



29.10.2012.

Postcards: Welcoming Commitee Awaiting Sandy (snapped from my window)

 



28.10.2012.

The Dewd's Sunday Sandy Rant

Why would you buy a bakery sandwich from Dunkin' Donuts? Because there's no bakery in 20 blocks - Dunkin' pushed them all out? Well... horrors of the free xafs. What are you gonna do.
 
It's an uncertain end to a very bleak week. Personally, I was fine. Nothing spectacular but easy and not very demanding. All around me, though... The Summer of Violence spilled well into the fall. It's not really more dangerous but just hearing every morning about mindless shootings kinda gets you eventually. Stuff that shocks you and rattles you... like the killer nanny, like 12 year old girl killed by 2 kids for spare BMX parts... There was an unusual amount of the usual crazies too. From the cannibal cop to the subway sleeper groper (gross). And I. Don't. Even. Want. To. Think. About. The. Election. Or the republicans and rape. Seriously?
I don't know, after all this I feel drained. I need a shut myself out for a while.
 
The subway might shut down today
, though. We have yet another impending destruction on the way to play with The City. Not the Godzilla, not the alien invasion. Sandy's coming. They call it The Frankenstorm (pom pom pooom). It's like the perfect storm all over again. Same, some say even worse, scenario, same settings but the impact will be much closer to us. Memo to self: just in case get a gallon or two of water and some other stuff.
 
Perspective: there's a photo ex
hibit: WWII and NYC or something, with the photos of, well, you know. Of course there's a famous Times Sq. kisser on display too. A sailor guy grabbed a random woman and kissed her. Looks monumental. But there's a worm gnawing in the portion of my brain where this image and stuff related to it is stored ever since I read that article in Jesebel where this act was portrayed as a flat out sexual violence. Well, it is what it is. Or is it? (pom pom pooom). Seriously, though, I think there is something in there. The photo is kinda iconic so it may be hard to scrutinize and question it but try that today and you might be compelled to introduce yourself to your new neighborhood as a sex offender. So why should we celebrate it? But then again, that was then and... I just don't want to think about it anymore.
 
Well, s
omehow it's comforting that The Tigers get beaten by The SF Giants. They're 3:0 down already and the broom is threatening tonight. Go Kung Fu Panda! Neighborhood pride: Before they became SF Giants, they were NY Giants, playing right here, below Coogan's Bluff, on The Polo Grounds, just a few blocks away. But The Yankees... dude... burn...
 
I'm in the mood for some Stan Getz and Oscar Peterson now.
 
PS: I loved it when
the NY1 news anchor smirked just now when finishing a report about the "quidditch" game in Central Park.

26.10.2012.

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17.10.2012.

Lo lo lo lo: UPDATE

UPDATE BELOW
 
What an eventful end of Shark Week we have: 
 
So, Melky Cabrera admitted having himself doped and thus spiking his averages way out of the ballpark. Gasp! How's that possible? A baseball pro doped? Zounds!
 
3 Fifty Shades of whatever books outsold 7 Harry Potters on Amazon UK. I don't know what to say about this. And where's the Twilight saga in it.
 
There is a "Yogurt Summit" being held in upstate NY. Apparently, New York's yogurt industry is having a momentum while at the same time a lot of state's dairy farms are going under. So Chobani is made from "out of state" milk and the guv minds. let me just say that every time I see John Stamos in an Oikos commercial I wanna throw a bottle of Kefir at the TV.
 
There's a protein bar made from cricket flour. Yup. Cricket flour. I wonder if they catch crickets in the wild or are they farming them. A cricket farm? Oh, and did FDA set the rules of the allowed percentage of the cockroaches it there? Speaking of which, is there a fundamental nutritious difference between a cricket and a cockroach? Could this mean there's another New York industry ready to boom? Yum?
 
And guess who they put on the cover page of my favorite New York Magazine? Kim fuckin' Kard... Fuck, no, I don't care if it's a shark week. It can be a megalodon week. No fuckin' way!
 
 
 
UPDATE: Well, Chobani did open a huge factory but in Idaho. The plant is 4 times the size of the one in Berlin, NY. Not enough milk, you guys.
 
PS: Yankees are now down 3. CC is pitching tomorrow but it won't matter if those guys cannot hit

 

15.10.2012.

Yankees fan

Or why did I scream my fucking throat out the other night?
 
It crept up on me. I was never a huge sports fan, well not in my adult life. I do enjoy occasional game on TV, maybe a Champions League match, or NBA. It's almost never intentional, I stumble upon it flicking thru the channels. I do somewhat more seriously (seriously?) follow The World Cup and EURO Championships. Much less of everything since I moved here. American football and Baseball I made fun
of. I teased my friends, like, you can follow only the short bursts of the game between long pauses, 45 minutes of continuous action would tire you out and also there are no ways to insert a bunch of commercials during the halves.
 
But I was curious. I had only the slightest clue what's it about in Football, and I won't even pretend that I knew a thing about Baseball. Of course, when you're purchasing manager in a company that does a lot of business, you get a lot of "we-appreciate-your-business" things, among which are occasional tickets to the ball game. In the beginning I regarded those merely as social events and good chances to observe something new. A couple of my friends really tried to get me into the game now and then, tried to explain what's going on and why they suddenly interrupted a fine, lengthy conversation by jumping off their seats and screaming. Later on, I kinda wanted to know more. So I started to read about it. Also, the elections 4 years ago and the stories about Nate Silver helped fan out this curiosity. What really got me into the game, tho, was Ken Burns' documentary about national pastime. Awesome! Watch it.

Long story short, I was really into it when The Giants won the Super Bowl earlier this year. Of course my allegiance is to the local teams, that's kinda given. Some would say it's easy to be a Giants fan, but only the suburbans from Long Island, New Jersey and snotty rich are their fans. Real New Yorkers grind with Jets. Well, boo fuckin' hoo. Jets suck miserably. Well, at least no one can argue with me being a Yankees fan. I mean, they're right here, across the Harlem river. Plus, The Mets suck too. 

Whoa! A fan? Well, I exhibit all the symptoms. I never miss the opportunity to watch them, no matter how shitty the weather, how lame the adversary. I watch them on the TV too. I follow the stories, check out the performances. It's early to say that I entirely comprehend all of the game, especially the statistics but I'm getting there too. Well...
 
It's ridiculous actually. I should hate it all. The perverse amounts of money in it, the shameless exploitation of basic feelings and whatnot, the juiced up players... meh. Let's go Yankees!
 
PS1: The game vs. Os on Wednesday (a snap below) was really intense. Best of 5, already 1:1 and the first game out of three in The Bronx....
 
PS2: They lost second, and won the third. Now they're playing Detroit but they lost yesterday in 12th inning after a miraculous gut wrenching comeback in 9th. And to add up to the misery, Derek Jeter broke an ankle. There's a second game vs. Detroit as I'm writing this, and it's scoreless at the top of the 7th.
 

PS3: Well, they lost. This round is played best of 7 so the next three will be in Detroit and if needed (pfffft) the additional 2 games are back here.
 
PS4: Well, at least The Giants won. They trashed The Niners. Literally.
 
 

 
 
 
    



03.10.2012.

Report: Weird day today

First, in the morning I started to sing Mashkare cha mogu mashkare, sinoc si me ljubila u tami, mashkare ca mogu maskare, i rekla si da nista mi ne fali... in the Middle of The Midtown!

Then, on a subway, I started to sing: Oooo oooo ooo i gledam, gledam ih kako, kako mi masu, ooooo oooo oooo k'o ruze, najljepse ruze nad mojim gradom...

And now the worst:

Making myself a cuppa coffee and singing: Doolaze i vracaju se s lastama suncani i nasmijani dani, opet je u mojoj dusi proljece...

For Pete's sake!!! Where did this come from?!?

This evening is gonna end up with a bottle of vodka and Youtube.

03.10.2012.

Postcards: Steamy

 



29.09.2012.

Postcards: Transparency

 



10.09.2012.

40

Nothing special so far. Definitely not the life-changing revelation. It's not like 42.

07.09.2012.

Fresh Batch of Weird Stuff People Search For on Internet

 



05.09.2012.

So The Democrats...

... are striking back. Their message is much sweeter to my ears but those are just words and words are wind so I won't praise either Michelle or Castro.
 
However,  I will still laugh remembering Clint Eastwood and the empty chair. In the words of great Jon Stewart: "12 minutes of improvised awesome in a week of a scripted blah!"
 
It's warm. It's humid. And I'm almost 40. Winter is coming.  

04.09.2012.

Weirdest Google Search Keywords: Step back, we have a winner!

 



04.09.2012.

Postcards: Got the World on a String

 



30.08.2012.

You Period Didn't Period Build Period That Period

This is a rant. But first, lemme tell ya a story about a city.
 
The city of old, magnificent, powerful, literally carved in stone. She thrived on trade and her fame was known in the farthest parts of the old world. She saw all the conquerors, countless armies and she saw them all break.
 
Until the fucking Romans.
 
Yup, they built another trading route and that was it. Now tourists come to admire dead Petra.
 
There's a thing or two about building infrastructure throughout the history of mankind. It correlates with the success of the empires, development of the regions, birth of the entire cities along the roads and bridges. It starts with a caravan, a ship or sometimes even just a donkey.
 
Some of the roads were famous. Hello, Silk Road? Some were infamous. Thieves, robbers, pirates... Kings and lords were protecting them and of course collecting taxes. Fast forward to James Watt and the beginning of the industrial revolution. Fwd... Fwd... Fwd...
 
Well, let's fast forward to this presidential campaign: You can be the best entrepreneur in the entire universe, you won't build your business in the middle of fucking nowhere. you won't build miles of roads and sprinkle them with some bridges and tunnels. And I'm talking here only about the transportation. Not the hospitals, not the schools. I mean, you could be a road entrepreneur. Build it from an A to a B and charge the people. Hmm... I got tired of bullshitting here. My point?
 
Fuck you Mitt Romney! Fuck you Paul Ryan! Fuck you too Ann Romney with your "He did build that!" And fuck you too Rand Paul and your anger, insult and sadness.
 
There.
 
I kinda dread the dealings with government agencies. If I oversimplify it, I can paint them with two colors. Of course, they're people too, there's much more, but c'mon, this is just a rant: the top tier, ambition-driven technocrats, future politicians and board directors and the sea of counter top administration pawns who settled, nested and just exist with no ambition whatsoever. Dealing with latter can be tricky. Depending on their current mood, personality, shit lists... It just pains me sometimes to think that some of them get paid with my tax money. Of course there are lovely people there too. This is just a rant. But at the end of the day, I'm glad. Why? New paragraph please:
 
I'm dead certain that if there were no building codes, buildings would collapse on people, we would be dying of lead poisoning and other shit. I know that if there are no regulations, we would be meat for giant corporations. Even now we are because in too many areas they definitely overpower the government, the lobbyist-infested, corrupt, blackmailed, even terrified public servants. So hear ye "I built my own business" bullshitters: Fuck you! 
 
 

29.08.2012.

RNC DNC LSD LBJ Sodomy Felacio Cunnilingus ...

November 6th. I kinda dread it. I have an uneasy feeling that if Romney wins, we're fucked. That's, however, where I'm mistaking. We're fucked anyway.
 
Looking back, I can see I was very tolerant towards those with a different opinion than mine. I was not tolerant towards fascists and other similarities but I could understand some very different opinions.
 
Gods, I hate Tea Party Talibans!
 
I don't hate them because they believe in loads of crap they believe in. I hate them for failing to see that the very beast they claim to fight against is feeding them and their candidates millions of dollars. Koch brothers, corporations, lobbyists... and using them to their ends.
 
It's easy to be stupid and naive, easy to be blind, easy to say no.
 
There's no sunshine in.

21.08.2012.

Fuck That Shit

I used to say that, in democracy, it's always icky when a majority passes a law that affects the daily lives of this or that minority. That's why there should be international binding laws to protect minorities. Oh, we have them already? Right. Anyway, a rogue state can always go Bulgaria on it: we do respect all minorities. It's just we don't have none. And since there is no overall definition of minority (nobody wants to open that can of worms), well...
 
What I hate is when men decide on women's health issues, contraception, even rape. I blame The Bible.
 
How long until they decide that women shouldn't go to colleges?
 
And women are literally a majority here! Both by population and by voting.
 
Like I said, fuck that shit. 
 

19.08.2012.

Postcards: Hamilton Heights Flea xxx

 



18.08.2012.

I used to link

 

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16.08.2012.

Lo lo lo lo lo

What an eventful end of Shark Week we have: 
 
So, Melky Cabrera admitted having himself doped and thus spiking his averages way out of the ballpark. Gasp! How's that possible? A baseball pro doped? Zounds!
 
3 Fifty Shades of whatever books outsold 7 Harry Potters on Amazon UK. I don't know what to say about this. And where's the Twilight saga in it.
 
There is a "Yogurt Summit" being held in upstate NY. Apparently, New York's yogurt industry is having a momentum while at the same time a lot of state's dairy farms are going under. So Chobani is made from "out of state" milk and the guv minds. let me just say that every time I see John Stamos in an Oikos commercial I wanna throw a bottle of Kefir at the TV.
 
There's a protein bar made from cricket flour. Yup. Cricket flour. I wonder if they catch crickets in the wild or are they farming them. A cricket farm? Oh, and did FDA set the rules of the allowed percentage of the cockroaches it there? Speaking of which, is there a fundamental nutritious difference between a cricket and a cockroach? Could this mean there's another New York industry ready to boom? Yum?
 
And guess who they put on the cover page of my favorite New York Magazine? Kim fuckin' Kard... Fuck, no, I don't care if it's a shark week. It can be a megalodon week. No fuckin' way! 
 

15.08.2012.

Bye Bye Birdie

Summer's almost gone. Yeah.
 
Funny thing, as a bear, I would suck miserably. I wouldn't hibernate, but aestivate. Well, none of that matters now, I've been starting to feel alive again. Certain wishes started to pop up in my mind, ideas. I feel ready to want stuff. Action, yes!
 
Another thing, there's this thing that's been on my mind for some time already, a year or so. Bird watching. I have no idea where it came from but I catch myself planing trips, googling equipment, seeing all kinds of birds everywhere... I'm like back off, dewd, you're way too lazy for that shit. But then again, am I?
 
I remember, some 20 years ago, a show, Northern Exposure, gods, I love that show, there's this guy, Holling, a pioneer kind of guy, hunter, who had this change of heart and swore to shoot animals only with a camera. He even had a customized one, mounted on a handle of a rifle, with a trigger and stuff, I was, wow, that's cool.
 
Oh, yes. There's Audubon Street, few blocks away from my apartment. Coincidence?
 
I'll need a better camera.
 
 

@ Bronx Botanic Garden @Riverside State Park @Riverside State Park @Central Park @Central Park Cardinal (@Central Park) @Far Rockaway @Jamaica Bay
10.08.2012.

Veep

Romneyhood? Oh, c'mon! That's Obamaloney!
 
4 years ago I was getting goosebumps regularly. Honest, courageous, energizing and overall positive, Obama's Hope & Change campaign was offsetting 8 years of Bush like a light of dawn after the longest night. Although Obama did wade into negative campaign against Hillary in the primaries, the national campaign was one of a kind. Even McCain tried to restrain racism and idiocy of the conservative base (birthers, Obama is an Arab, Kenyan, Alien Terorist...) We did have a good show though, in the Veep candidate Sarah Grizzly Mom / Hockey Mom Palin.
 
I'm not sure if this one is the ugliest of all times, I don't have big enough frame of reference, but sure it ain't pretty. Obama's ad: Mitt Romney killed that guy's wife! (well, a paid actor tells a story when Romney cut him off work, he lost healthcare and his wife couldn't get a checkup so when she got really ill they went to the hospital and of course it was too late.) I'd call that despicable if only I could wrap my mind around the fact that they really let it air. Totally different atmosphere, this campaign. Nobody even thinks of change and the only thing I hope for is that Obama won't lose in the end. Gods, no! I think that Romney would be like Mayan prophecy come true. Seriously, that guy is like from another planet. I can see how he can be good CEO but hello, a corporation doesn't have children to educate, no seniors to care for, no real human issues. And, of course, it's obvious that he desperately wants to be elected, no matter what. He tried so many times and failed, he's not really the first pick candidate for Republican elite, lacks a connection to the base (especially with the Tea party crazies) and he can only thank to the crazier-than-thou presidential candidates in theatrically ridiculous Republican primaries for his nomination.
 
So, who's he gonna pick as a running Veep?

09.08.2012.

Postcards: DIY Instagram - Atlantic off Rockaway Beach

 



08.08.2012.

Fresh batch of misanthropy for the day:

There is no us and them. There is no 99% and 1%. We are who we are. A 100% fucked up.
 

07.08.2012.

That's what I'm talking about!

 



06.08.2012.

Bolt

When I finally get up, I'm exhausted because I have to will myself into it. Summer is definitely not my time. During the weekend I have managed to watch at least 7 movies, not that I remember any. Well, No country for old men rerun doesn't count.
 
I got hooked on yet another TV show. The Newsroom, I believe it's called. The fresh batch of Justified is arriving in few days and then The Walking Dead. I can stream Burn Notice... maybe later. And of course there is True Blood. True Fuckin' Blood. So stupid.
 
Let me take a moment to sing praises to the achievements of the civilization: Blessed be my AC! Blessed be the concept of food delivery! Blessed be both cable and wireless. And above all, blessed be the holy circle of consumerism which allows the companies that produce goods and services some budget money to advertize and thus allow the networks and studios to produce some entertainment during which they're advertizing said goods and services to us.
 
...
 
So, this is how incoherent thoughts look like on the screen.

01.08.2012.

Bleat

You know the other day when I was bitching about being zapped every now and then? Yeah... I wish. I'm not one of those who'd hurt themselves just to feel something, but I sure would like to feel something else.
 
Meh...

30.07.2012.

My Eyes! My Eyes!!!

 
Why is all that weird shit leading to my blog?
 



23.07.2012.

Super, Super s Krispijem - Post na nasem zacinjen tu i tamo sa tudjicama

Dragi Dnevnice,
 
Vec duze vrijeme tek simbolicno egzistiras. Navratim ja, prozracim, al' prasinu ne brisem. Redovno doduse pogledam ima li novih postova od ovo malo raje sto imam u favoritima al' jedva da sta komentiram, a ni oni (vi) se ne satrase bas od pisanja. Najzanimljivije mi je, od svega, povremeno pogledati search keywords koje vode do nekog od mojih postova. Zna mi se u tim trenutcima i omaknut pa krenem nekim od puteva proslih. Bude smijesnih situacija, sjetim se nekih ljudi, povremeno se zastidim naivnosti tjeseci se da sam konacno odrastao, sad ce mi 40, to su ozbiljne godine za ozbiljna razmisljanja a ne za kojekakva superjunacenja ili dewdovanja.
 
Right.
 
Nece taj djavo iz mene izaci s godinama, cinimise. Jos uvijek ja reagiram slicno na neke vijesti, na neke situacije, na necije gluposti i bezobrazluke. Kratko to, medjutim, sada traje. Fzzzz... tsssss. Corak. Tako da ne stignem cestito ni misao formulirati a kamoli angry post napisati....
 
...
 
Bullshit! I just don't have it in me anymore.

05.07.2012.

7 godina?

Wow!

04.07.2012.

The Fourth of July

Most of the time it comes after the third. This one wedged itself right in the middle of the week. Let's stuff ourselves with processed meat and blow things up. Lewis Black once said: Most of the time we don't know what we eat, unless it's a Hot Dog, in which case we know it's pig's snouts and anuses.
 
I can't remember when it started. I'm inclined to believe it was May 2nd, with the end of the spring drought of 2012. When will it end? And what exactly? Not sure. Not important. Maybe it did already and I didn't notice. I mean, I feel good. Not great but still.
 
I used to be a poet. I liked it.

29.06.2012.

Ah, da...

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzap!
 

27.06.2012.

Postcards: Bank of America Building, 42nd and 6th

 



14.06.2012.

 

12.06.2012.

Winter is coming

The girl is not stupid and it's not her fault that she believes in fairy tales, knights and maidens, valor and courage. And love. The other girl is no different. What she believes are flying monsters spewing fire out of their mouths. Both will find their courage and wisdom along the way. To each his own. The third girl, she's a needle. 

11.06.2012.

Zzzzzzzap!

 

08.06.2012.

Call me crazy but...

Hey! Who do ya call crazy!
    
 
It's hot again. No, it's raining again. No it's hot again. I love this city. It used to be enough. But this fucking zzzzzzzzzapping is just going on for too long.
 
 
You need a vacation! That's what they say. Like they know. I'd still have to live. I'd still have to breathe. Work doesn't bother me. Hell, it even helps putting some sense and structure in my life.
 
  
I need a therapist.   
 
 
Some folks like to get away
Take a holiday from the neighborhood
Hop a flight to Miami Beach
Or to Hollywood
But I'm talking a Greyhound
On the Hudson River Line
I'm in a New York state of mind

 

07.06.2012.

Repetitive hiccup

So I'm waiting for...
 
a) the worms
b) the miracle, for the miracle to come
c) the end
d) you to tell me what went wrong
e)_____________________________

05.06.2012.

Zzzzzzzap!

I'd blame the weather, Republicans, even cosmic fucking radiation! I would if I could. It is what it is. It's not up to me.
 
And it isn't. But it's not up to Republicans either. I'd blame anyone, anything. I need to paint my pain in recognizable colors.
 
Well, not the pain, not really. More like an itch. But it needs to be pain because it's my skin I'm scratching and a mere discomfort is not enough for valiant suffering,
 
Not that I'm suffering, though. But the itch!
 
Maybe it's the weather.

04.06.2012.

That Old Feeling

It's like that thing, whatchamacallit, the invisible electric fence, you know, for the dogs so they won't run out of the front yard. It hits you, it zaps you out of the blue because you keep forgetting you're collared, not free. But you have a scary, terrible, gut wrenching urge to run. Zzzzzzzap! Like Bieber hitting the glass door. Painful stop. Reminder of that old feeling. I'm not enjoying it very much. Duh!
 
I have that old feeling. A creepy one, that creeps up on you and you have no idea when it's gonna sting you. But I know it only appears a creeper. Because it's in me all the time. So I shouldn't be surprised. I cannot avoid seeing you.
 
Zzzzzap!
 
Yup, I don't even have to really see you.
 
Zzzzzzap!
 
Fuck!  

25.05.2012.

Jeka

1)

Maj, maj, maj sretne ruke siri...

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2)

Povodom Dana Mladosti

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21.05.2012.

All the keywords people search...

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17.05.2012.

Seti se Majajaja (mix-tape post)

Pisem na nasem, mozak mi se buni. Zasto, zasto, majka pita?

I’m a broken man. I didn’t know it for a long, long time, but now I’m quite certain. I’m a broken man. Didn’t feel the pain. Didn’t feel like breaking. Like damage. Shit, I couldn’t even pinpoint the exact moment of breaking. Should I call it breaking, then? I’m a broken man. It’s not as bad as you might think. On the contrary. I have a pretty good excuse for not doing what a not-broken-man is supposed to do. It’s OK. It’s more than OK. In words of great master Anthony Lane: Break me, a fucking, give!

Zanimljivost: sjecam se dvije pjesme u kojima se maksuz imenom spominje i citira Bajaga. Pored naslovne (krilima zmajajaja k’o sto je pev’o Bajaga - parafraziram) ima i ona od kako se ono zvao Djurin band (poveo bih Momcila sto kaze b b bam bam necu nista da znam)…

11.05.2012.

Gay Brouhaha or all the wonderful ways in which this country is fucked up

I watch MSNBC's Morning Joe almost every day before I'm off to work. I like Mika a lot. I even like Joe, most of the time when they're together. They have this weird dynamic and more often than not it's fun. Willie is the best, though. But, man, can Joe piss me off. His smugness, his sense of superiority, his Is and Mes... Ah well... Let's not go there.
 
So, Obama publicly endorsed gay marriages 2 days ago. Funny thing happens yesterday: It's only Mika and guests for the first hour and it's all historic moments and human rights victories. This morning, it's Joe and the bunch and it's, well, overblown, nothing new, a smoke bomb, conservativeness of Obama and so on. Maybe it's the schedule, maybe it's not, that's not the issue. This actually highlights the fucked-upness mentioned in the title.

There are those who praise the historic moment of the first presidential endorsement of gay marriages, who worry about swing states and whatnot might hurt Obama in the elections. Well, there is something historic in the thing. It happened at one point in history.
It's not some kind of a dramatic win. It won't matter much. He owed it, however. Long overdue coming out. Hinted but never clear enough. Whoever votes against Obama, he will do so regardless of the gay marriage issue. Plenty of stuff around there. Whoever swings his vote, though, for that reason, really? And I mean really? What won't happen is that this coming out will become a spark that will ignite another round of hope and change fever. So, even the press rejoices in this quasi historic moment, it is really no biggie. But what cannot be overlooked is that Obama really is the first American president to say it.
 
There are those, on the other hand, who might say, yes he declared support, but he also said the issue should be left for each state to decide. Which really is a conservative point of view. There you have North Carolina amending it's constitution with "marriage is a man and a woman only thing". So there you go. Obama supports the states dealing with it. And that's where Joe Scarborough comes in with his claims. And that's where the titular fucked-upness comes in.

No, we don't want big government spending!
Don't touch those subsidies to the corn and oil industry!
Free xafs will take care of the issues itself!
That's why those subsidies are for!
It's outrageous that Obama messes with Supreme Court threatening them for questioning Healthcare law passed by the will of majority!
How does Supreme Court dare to mess with the will of majority by questioning State of California gay marriage ban? 

Whoa, what?

So the Supreme court is questioning a state's dealing with gay marriage? But Obama said... oh, I see... you can say shit, hell you can even pass shit. There's still Supreme Court to defend rights of minorities from democratic majority's oppression! Well, grain of salt, please! The same Supreme Court gave multinational corporations the personhood and protection of free speech (political campaign money!) even they mostly are not US citizens. WWTSCD?
 
I'd say the real problem in this country are likes of CHASE who admitted $2 Billion trading loss this morning. It happened because the real powers, Lobbies, took down Glass - Steagall Act some 20 years ago and now credit institutions can speculate thus gambling with your houses and student loans...
 
The President came out. Lots of feelings stirred. What won't happen though is that his coming out will become a spark that will ignite another round of hope and change fever. It was easy to have Bush as an effigy to burn. Now, despite giant vampire squid metaphors and OWS, there is no face of the enemy. The faceless "people".
 
Live, from New York, it's Dewewewewd!

04.05.2012.

Sjeti me Moje Tajne ili Krckalica Serpica ili stajaznam Ljetni Dan...

01.05.2012.

Mayday Tweet

So, four years ago, on this day I moved to Manhattan. Still there. Still lovin' it.

06.04.2012.

Nema taj predmet, decko!

Povijest. Bitna za bitak. Znati svoju, znaci znati sebe. Da, ali u panjevima.

Odmah na pocetku par upozorenja vezanih za ono sto slijedi:

1) ne namjeravam biti ozbiljan, vazan, znanstveno i cinjenicno potkrijepljen, politicki korektan, postivati tudja vjerovanj, uvjerenja, bogove, idole, mitove, legende...
2) moguce je da sam se toliko odvojio od covjecanstva da fakat ne vidim dobro.
3) ne obracajte paznju na jezicke i gramaticke greske, pisem nasumice, sta mi padne na pamet a i odrodio sam se od vlastitog jezika.

Teza: jebo povijest.

Zasto: jaaa misssliim cika Dusssshko da je ono sto mi danas vjerujemo da je nasa povijest ne samo iskrivljena verzija vec iskrivljene verzije necega sto je tko zna koliko puta iskrivljeno. Iskrvljeno, takodjer. Na tvrdoj stini, na stecku, na Kozari, krvlju, zlatom, novcanicama... Naravno da postoje cinjenice, neoborive cak. Ono sto je za kurac su poveznice i interpretacije.

Uopce se ne zelim baviti silama koje vezu cinjenice i upravljaju interpretacijama. Ima ih raznih. Kao i motiva. Povijest je bitna za radjanje nacija. Galipolje za Australce, na primjer. Nacije razdvajaju covjecanstvo, dakle, nije dobro ali necemo ni o tome. Povijest je umrljana neugodnostima: Sta ako je u tvojoj povijesti robovlasnistvo (u cijoj nije, ali recimo da se ogranicimo na zadnjih 1000 godina)? I da te potomci robova konstantno podsjecaju na to, ako nista svojim prisustvom. S druge strane, sta ako je u tvojoj povijesti robovlasnistvo? Ako su tvojim narodom (recimo, vec oformljenim nekom povijesnom bitnoscu) vladali drugi, 500 godina, 1000 godina? A treba ti povijesna cinjenica da legitimitet trazenja samostalnosti za sebe bude jaci? Sta ako su se u tvoje ime vrsili genocidi? Ili ako se to maskira, skriva, opravdava?
 
Identitet: Ono sto ja smatram faktima: Ako sam i imao izbora gdje cu se roditi, nemam zrnca sjecanja o tome, tako da cu pretpostaviti da je puka slucajnost (ili necija volja, u sta ne vjerujem) da sam rodjen u zemlji u kojoj sam rodjen od roditelja koji su, kao i ja, tu rodjeni. Samim time nasljedjujem ne samo genetsku povijest nego i onu pisanu, odnosno interpretiranu, koja utjece na formiranje mog karaktera a samim time i mog osjecaja identiteta.  Medjutim, ako je tek puka slucajnost moja pojava tu, znaci da taj naslijedjeni identitet i nije neki bitan faktor u zivotu. Istina, lakse se zivi u okruzenju istih ali sta vise? (S druge strane, ako me je netko svojom voljom posadio tu, onda je i tebe tamo, sto opet ne nosi neki bitan faktor u zivotu).
 
Ima jedna anegdota o molitvi jednog ortodoksnog Zidova: Hvala ti boze sto nisam rodjen kao goy i kao zena. GB Shaw je jednom anegdoticno definirao patriotizam kao kad mislis da je tvoja zemlja najbolja samo zato sto si ti rodjen u njoj. Jednom sam ja napisao ovo, citirajuci Selimovica:  dewd.blogger.ba/arhiva/2011/05/04/2751944
 
OK, cini mi se da sam svega natrpao u ovaj buckuris. Ono u sta ja vjerujem je da me sputava svaka druga identifikacija osim da sam ljudsko bice (citaj: svako drugo pripadanje osim ljudskom rodu). Medjutim, to je samo moje misljenje i meni je taman.
 
E sad, na pocetku rekoh da je moguce da sam se odrodio od covjecanstva. Kako onda pripadam ljudskom rodu? Hmm... Mozda i ta identifikacija ogranicava. Dovoljno mi je sto moram disati, jesti, piti, spavati, sto sam vezan gravitacijom i ostalim silama. Tu nemam izbora jer fakat zelim zivjeti i volim zivot. 
 

03.04.2012.

Read all about itL


April 9, 2012 Issue

Cover Story

The Scandalized City

A City of Ids: Colin Harrison on why the city has always been fertile ground for the sordid, baroque, and gruesome.
310 Years of Disgust and Delight: A romp through New York’s notorious: A governor goes to his wife’s funeral in drag! Grave-robber med students incite a riot! An art gallery unmasked as an S&M dungeon! With: Frank Rich on Broadway sexpot Mae West; Nora Ephron on boyfriend-killer Jean Harris; Jerry Saltz on the city’s most reviled painting.
Plus: Jim Holt and Laura Kipnis spar over the morality of titillation; Liz Smith and Steven Gaines debate the limits of public forgiveness; Wayne Barrett and Tom Robbins remember the greatest hits of municipal malfeasance.
On the Cover: From top, Eliot Spitzer (Mary Altaffer/AP), Whitman Knapp (Lee Romero/New York Times/Redux), and Mary Astor (Photofest).

02.04.2012.

Anniversaries

I was in a dream for almost 20 years. Then "they" woke me up. That happened 20 years ago. I don't know who's fault it was that I didn't wake up earlier, by myself. Might be mine. Doesn't really matter now. Some are still dreaming. 20 years. Man!

28.03.2012.

Sta reci (Achtung: Nas, bez afrikata)

Sjedio jutros jedno 45 minuta, pijuci kavu i gledajuci u blog editor. You know when you're with a f...
E jebiga. Znate kad se ono ujutro nadjete s dobrim drugom na prvoj kavi. Nema potrebe za pricom. E tako.

23.03.2012.

Of the hype induced by commencement of the long awaited fifth season of Mad Men with some observations on the series itself

Couldn't care less.
But I always wanted to write a title like this one.
Tried to watch it this winter, stopped after 4 episodes.
Not my cuppa tea.
Loved Christine Hendricks though.

22.03.2012.

TakE a Bow (or a knee)

Tebow-ing (verb) - To get down on a knee and start praying, even if everyone else around you is doing something completely different. (Urban dictionary).
 
A virgin. A devoted christian. A fluke quarterback. And a (short term) ticket price bump. But above all, a long lasting meme.
 
What the Jets did acquiring Tim Tebow yesterday (not long after they extended  40 Mil contract with their own Marc Sanchez) is perhaps a publicity stunt and nothing more. Why they did it, I don't really want to think about. What amuses me in this story is the social aspect of it.
 
A virgin is coming to the proverbial S&G*. And a righteous one. The new owners want to keep him in New Jersey, far away from the temptations of the big city nightlife, to preserve his innocence as long as they can. But the clergymen, they have more faith in the man, they have courage and they are ready to seize this gift. They're rejoicing in this new ray of mercy, planing big offensive on the team Night, visualizing full churches and empty nightclubs.

Will young Skywalker succumb to the dark side of the soul crushing cynicism and treacherous pleasures of the flesh or will he overcome and bring a new light of salvation to the damned?
 
Sounds like fun, anyway you turn it.

Man, can I talk shit!
 
 
 
_________________
* as in Sodom and Gomorrah

13.03.2012.

STOP

Halt!
 
Blossom everywhere, she said to me. I see nothing. I don't believe her. I try not to hear her. It's impossible not to hear her. All I hear is her. I'm lucky I see nothing anymore. I remember how it was with her all around me. Like drowning in her. Dissolving. This way I have blissful nothing in sight. If only she would stop talking.
 
Halt!
 
Yoda once said: Shadow of greed, jealousy is. Fuck him. Or in the words of great master Anthony Lane: Break me a fucking give! Of course it's greed. I greed you! And yeah I'm jealous. Like a green hellfire. Look at you! Who wouldn't be!
 
Halt!
 
Hello, my name is The Ex and I live alone in an ant hill. Echooooooo! Echoooooo! Graaaaaaa! Chirp Chirp! Echooooo! I'm having a blast!
 
Halt! 

01.03.2012.

in dependence

 
I'm sentimental, if you know what I mean
I love the country but I can't stand the scene.
And I'm neither left or right
I'm just staying home tonight,
getting lost in that hopeless little screen.


L.C.

29.02.2012.

Dewd's Trivial Pursuit, Google Search Edition


ferokrom
first snow of winter 2012
IF THEN PETLJA
IGRA KOZAVICE, ČOVJEČE NE LJUTI SE
igre rata da skupjas vojsku
joey and chandler dijalozi
kako postati radioamaterstvo
kako rastopiti zlato iz elektroničkog otpada
kako se igra kozavica
kalasnjikov izvedenice
koji je americki predsjednik "prvi" uveo "godisnje obracanje naciji"?
koji je prvi americki predsjednik uveo "godisnje obracanje naciji"?
kralj lear gloster slijep
microsoft i aol daju novac
Neruda What is it that upsets volcanoes meaning
oće maček
ou em dzi
prezimljavanje ovaca
sarafciger bosnisch

22.02.2012.

Dear Diary...

In about a month, it will be 4 years since I'm here. I'm penning this entry today because it's safe to say that I won't remember it on that particular day. Also, I have no energy to do the actual work. This way it looks like I'm busy.
 
So, what's to say about these last 4 years? Well, gradually I changed, of course. I got healed too. Not entirely, of course, but significantly. I also stopped caring about shi... stuff too much. What I realized, though, is that even after 4 years, I still like it here and in no way, shape or form has a thought occurred to me of leaving.
 
I don't remember me being longer in one place since I left the proverbial nest back in 1994. That's something. I also accepted the beautiful insignificance of my existence, but that's another story.
 
Dear Diary, yesterday I had really great falafel for lunch. Mental note: Chambers and Broadway. Long line during the lunch hour.
 
The Dewd abides. 

21.01.2012.

Postcards: First Snow this Winter - It's gonna be +11C on Monday

 



17.01.2012.

iQuotes@TM

Birds flying high... you know what... you know what? You know shit!

12.01.2012.

Google works in misterious ways:

Emir Zlatar
sonet 66 shakespeare
brathersex
igre kozavice
kninske drolje
luka vincetić
odrasih porn
upotreba č i ć
what is it that upsets volcanoes? by neruda
zlatar emir
قظيحت سري
"saša blagus"
"the more you hate me the more you will learn" -amphibian -hartman -"am hard"
alawiti
banini paketici
belma becirbasic
čavoglave bešlija
deda mraze sjeti se i nas mali moji slatki moji mislim ja na vas
dewd
edo murtić manhattan
emmir zlatar
give me crack and anal leonard cohen
h t t p : / / n i k a . b l o g g e r . b a /
hamburg hansestadt slike
igre kozavica
kozavica
kramer vs kramer
misli su slobodne
odgovor na poslanicko pitanje generalni sekretarijat
odjeca iz proslog vremena
operacija gunnerside
otimanje djece
pavo majić
priklani
sanitarna inspekcija
sex na ex
shakespearov sonet 66
skice stepenica
superjunak.blogger.ba
ts990sdx
wugein
zašto datumska granica prolazi morem
 
 
And all of the above ones lead to The Dewd. The Dewd abides.

01.01.2012.

Few Words

Do not seek the treasure.
With great power comes great responsibility.
Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering.
When the world slips you a Jeffrey, stroke the furry wall.
Don't eat the yellow snow.
Always look at the bright side of life.
Don't look back.
It's just the jump to the left and the step to the right.
Turn the right corner in Sin City, and you can find anything.
Walk down the right back alley in Sin City, and you can find anything.
Nobody expects the Spanish inquisition.
Never attribute to malice that which can be adequately explained by stupidity.
The whole fucking thing's about property.
It's a fool that looks for logic in the chambers of the human heart.
If real is what you can feel, smell, taste and see, then 'real' is simply electrical signals interpreted by your brain.
The Dark Flame will not avail you, Flame of Udun.
You're no crazier than the average asshole out walkin' around on the streets and that's it.
Oxygen gets you high.
The greatest trick the Devil ever pulled was convincing the world he didn't exist.
As soon as you lay your hands on a conversation to steer it, it's not a conversation anymore; it's a pitch.
The more you hate me the more you will learn.
An essential characteristic of the superhero mythology is, there's the superhero, and there's the alter ego.
There's a dark side to each and every human soul.

And...

So long and thanks for all the fish.

The Dewd Abides

30.12.2011.

SERMON

 
 
 
hear ye
do not despair
it is
an oblivion
what you're
looking at
but
so what
gods used to be
envious of men
let us
once more
get back
to that
 
 

 
 

08.12.2011.

Mislim...

Danas nasa firma ima Christmas Party u jednom pubu u Astoriji, Queens. Atmosfera u kancelarijama je blagdanski uspavana. Ima se posla ali se odradjuje sto bi ovdje rekli "half-assed". Ja sam, na primjer pregledao portale koje citam, novine na Facebooku i u jednom trenutku se sjetio Bloggera pa onda Stat Countera; dugo nisam.
 
Vidim, netko je googlao Brand Mango i jedan od predlozenih rezultata je i OVAJ POST (LINK) od prije 6 godina. Zanimljiva razmisljanja u komentarima, pogotovo iz sadasnje perspektive, nakon vise od 3 ipo godine u New Yorku.
 
Ah well...

05.12.2011.

Gospel

A homeless man, done with the rummaging inside a subway trash can, looked at me, circled around me couple of times, huge plastic bags full of loot in his hands, and finally exclaimed: "Brother, you look like Jesus! You look like Jesus Christ! Do you know that Jesus was white!? It says so in the scripture! You look like Jesus. He was white! You look like Jesus Christ!"
 
I just smiled and continued to read my magazine.

28.11.2011.

IF ONLY

if only I could
reach
with my arm
through my mouth
into my gut
deep inside of me
I'd yank you
out of there
like a baby
alien
wouldn't think
twice
but
it's
all right


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